Wow, Its only just hit me that I move away to university in September… thats 7 months away. I’ve always dreamed about going to uni and it being the best time of my life, but my worried, paranoid self has just kicked it and screwed shit up.
So if some of you read my post a few months back you will know that i got onto a scheme to reduce my grades for one of the top universities in the UK, and thankfully i passed, reducing the required grades i needed to do a biology degree with integrated masters to ABB instead of the usual A*AA/AAA, requirements. This was incredible and I had never been happier than the moment I found out I got the news. However, by stupid panic mindset has now set me in a tailspin and I don’t know what to do, heres why:
1- I got a letter from the university saying that the majority of the students on the course gain all A*’s, and although with my reduced grades this is not a requirement for me, I fear that I will not be able to keep up with the rest of the class, and ultimately struggle with how hard the course is going to be. Not forgetting how bloody hard it is to start with
2- Alongside this point, If everyone else is this smart then it will decrease the chance I will come out with a good degree, like most i would aim for a 2:1, but with everyone else brainbox’s I’d have no chance!
3- I don’t know if I’m passionate enough about Biology to spend 4 years studying it, alongside the fact that if I’m struggling, i will have to revise for it 24/7. Don’t get me wrong I don’t dislike it, I don’t mind lessons and I find it quite interesting, but if its all I’m doing then I hope I enjoy it. And honestly, thinking about it, I much prefer maths (just throwing that curveball out there)
4- Career prospects!!!! WTF will I do with a biology degree! Like yeah Genetics interests me, but when i think of my 40 year old self, I don’t see myself in a Lab, quite frankly I see myself at a desk job as an accountant or something????
Wow, I just don’t know what to do. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? or know how hard biology is at Uni??
I’d really appreciate any help I could get.